Perseverance

Perseverance seems to be the motto of my life at the moment. This summer I embarked on a crazy journey I like to call "finding happiness." Easy for most, but extremely difficult for me. The last couple of months I've been emotionally drained and horribly bitter and depressed. Instead of taking the road of defeat, I opted for the road to happiness (just like the title to my blog says). I've been trying to learn how to live a life that is worthwhile and it's been interesting to say the least. I've been seeing this wonderful lady who is doing her best to make me appreciate my "good" qualities...and it's working to some degree. I go to a weekly bible study with college age women so that I can be involved in something. I babysit an adorable baby once a week. I'm planning my best friends wedding reception, which is basically a dream come true for me. I was also called in for an interview after filling out 40 applications (literally).

While these all seem like great things, I'm still struggling. My heart is still broken and each day I have to make an effort to get out of bed and be productive. Perseverance is what has been carrying me through. Knowing that I HAVE to reach my end goal or my life will truly go up in flames. Trying to understand that it's best that we don't see too far ahead, cause what would be the fun in that? The story of your life isn't about the ending, it's about everything that happens in the middle. So I guess what I want to say is that at the end of my story, I will have persevered through these tough times and I will have my happy ending (eventually).

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." Hebrews 12:1