Breakeven

I was listening to the song "Breakeven" by The Script and it got me to thinking about love and how complicated it is. In my (little)experience of love, it seems that one person always has stronger feelings than the other and both people have different expectations. I'm very envious of the couples who have non-complicated relationships. Those people that just meet each other, like each other, date and end up married within a couple of years. How is it possible to have such an un-complicated relationship? It seems like something out of a movie, and if there's anything I don't believe in, its love like in the movies. I think its ridiculous to assume that you're going to meet your soul mate and everythings gong to work out perfectly. Perfect relationships don't exist and I think that most of society has unrealistic expectations of relationships. Prince Charming is from a fairytale and I think the sooner people realize that, the better off they'll be when it comes to love. When I was younger I couldn't wait to find Mr. Right, the boy who had all the qualities that I wanted and who would sweep me off my feet..well, now that thought has been shattered. I always knew that I would meet that guy in highschool..and it didn't happen. Then I knew that I would find him in college...and it didn't happen. Now I'm going to have to miraculously meet some guy at the grocery store(or a similarly odd place) and make such a good impression that he'll want to pursue me. What are the odds of that really happening? I feel like from this point on finding a guy will be like finding a needle in a haystack. Plus, I'm not particularly outgoing which won't exactly be a help on my search for Mr. Right. I think my real dissapoint comes from the fact that college is over and what do I really have to show for it? I've never had a boyfriend and every boy that I have had some sort of "relationship" with, kicks me to the curb with out a second thought. Knowing that not only was I not what they wanted, but that they don't even care enough about me to feel any kind of remorse or saddness as they tell me that I'm just not what they're looking for. I guess to sum it all up, I wish that at the end of my next "relationship" when we don't breakeven, that I'm on the side that does the breaking, not the one who recieves it.